Day (5)

6.44:

An encouraging means to kick-start what is deemed as an arduous and strenuous period of time. Extremely.

It ain't the fact that we're not to be blamed for what we've done.

It ain't the fact too that anyone doesn't have a role to play in this grand scheme; for we're all in this together.

It ain't the fact of who is wrong, or who is right.

It left me pondering. Yeah.

It is indubitably a hard fact that people try hard at times. Trying so hard, that till the point whereby one is at the brink of a huge, abysmal crater where any little push probably would land you into nothingness. The thing is, unavoidably at most times, it is so hard, so difficult that no matter how much one tries, results are not always seen. People thus get tired. Very. Tired of trying again, tired of facing anything with the dread of not being able to accomplish the goals you set out with initially, to see to the end of that particular venture.And gradually, they start to give up. And although I know, and we all know who is ultimately at fault, it brings no justice to the situation should it be done in any other way. Yet is there no other way, but to lecture and the use of a particular style, tone to criticize?
Or perhaps a little sense of satisfaction's felt when negativity is invoked?

Apologies. A mere statement or something bigger, something, perhaps a little from the heart and more sincere? As much as one longs for recognition and acknowledgment of the others' flaws and faults, it is only the deserving, that get it eventually, in my opinion.

It is definitely human to err, but it takes something bigger to recognize, accept and act on it. But at the very least, from me to you - mea culpa.

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Letting go.

It's surprising, really, to attempt to fathom the human mind. Or to possibly comprehend plausible reactions from a multitude of exposure and experiences, that I feel.

Letting go, at the best of times, doesn't mean you're giving up. It just means you're learning to move on with your life. It isn't wise just to let a few setbacks get you weak, out of breath and unmotivated. We're made for bigger, better things, that's a definite. And as much as it pains anyone to envision you in this state, no one is to be blamed. Nor is there anything that anyone can do; the decision solely lies with you, I believe. 

It is definitely acceptable for one to take briefs respites at times, break for a short hiatus before an all out stretch of efforts supplied. No one, absolutely no one is doubting your abilities. Nor is anyone questioning what you have achieved thus far. And I believe that in the eyes of many you serve as a role model. A stellar one, despite what you might have in mind of yourself.

To crumble under pressure and succumb to needless worries that plagues one unnecessary, I believe that that just isn't you. It is definitely human to assume burdens, place them upon our shoulders. They however should only serve as a reminder; that we actually have responsibilities to cater to, to point you in the right direction and possibly to act as a driving/motivating force to one. Senseless thinking and pondering never helps, that I feel once again. Nor is escapism; where firstly, the unsolved problem still sticks out like a sore thumb, and secondly, you've ultimately to face the surmounting pressures from your surrounding environment and factors that demand answers. Pleasant? No, I think not.

To live up proud, to stand up tall, your choice. And I really mean it. 

But it's never too late to mention, that our fingerprints never fade from the lives we've touched, and I'm sure you've definitely made a difference in the lives of many, mine at least. And I'm sure you'll be able to pull through this just fine. I hope, and I dearly hope, that in the near future would you realize, and possibly let bygones be bygones, start afresh, and do yourself, and the people around you proud.

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"But let there be space in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other’s cup but drink not from the same cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.
Sing and dance together and be Joyous, but let each one of you be alone.
Even as the strings of the lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping.

For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together, yet not too near together
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other’s shadow."

Kalil Gilbran