Throw me a lifebouy, and I'll survive

'It's amazing how someone can break your heart, but you still love them with all the little pieces.' Aye. Such, is love. For all the little things they have done for you, you love them in return every bit. Unknowingly, but definitely.

At times, we ask ourselves.

Of all people, why myself.
Is there any worse to what I can face.
Can anyone understand the pain I am going through.

We grief, for what we've been through, at the fact that seemingly, no other shares the pain we face. That no one understands, nor have any idea. "What do they know about me, they're not in my shoes, they're not facing what I am going through. How do they even think they can care, least help."

We shut ourselves out.

And allow ourselves to drown. Drown, beneath the despair, never to resurface. 'neath the crushing weight lying on your heart, under the stabbing pain that prior to this we do not know capable to be invoked. We allow ourselves to let our emotions take over, we run away from the problem, hoping that all would be better; ultimately leaving the problem, unsolved. After all, I've seen silly people whom take it out on themselves physically, their silly explanation: well, physical pain's less hurtful than the emotional surges that you suffer from. Avoiding the problem, although less harmful, does not alleviate the situation either.

I've realized, that running away from a problem does not help.
Evading, eluding the problem does not necessary solve it.
Be positive.

Though know not, the nature or cause of your worries,
I know, that,
Through the rain, through the storms,
Over mountain peaks and craggy ravages.
They've seen you through.
That they've provided, a sanctuary,
Filled with that of warmth, security, kindness
Love.
I know too, that,
Have they not been there the past many years,
We would be, who we are today.
Have faith.

They've given us more than we can expect, made sacrifices bigger than we can ask for. And yet for what reason, or what in return?

Having said, it is hard sometimes for us to put the blame on others, when we know that they attribute in their own way, to a certain part of whom we are today, without which, who knows where we'll be. I believe, that what is done, can be explained. Though hard to accept at times, it can be explained. Just most of the time, blocked out or not given a chance to be expressed.

I believe that in you, you've a spark, a spark waiting to expand. A spark, of hope.
I believe that in you, there is a never say die spirit.
I believe that you are strong. I believe in you.
So please, don't give up just yet. For it is the darkest before dawn.

To you my friend, stay happy.

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