Back in a day or two; Me.

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People, do get wearied.

Weary from the constant onslaught of problems, from the fact when one's solved, yet another can of worms' opened.
Weary from the quandaries landed in, as well as the reeling feeling of descending into yet another bottomless pitfall.
Weary from the steadily increasing streams of negative feedback; and the immutable fact that hard work fails to equate success at the best of times.
Weary of the constant, throbbing ache with each step forward to remind thyself of each painful spike and nail trodded on in the past.
Weary of the truckloads of **** behind the humorless facade life has to offer.

Hard smiles, cheerless faces, is that all that life has to offer?

It's a wonder how people remain cheerful at all times, never to falter; it's a wonder what one can do in a desperate bid of escapism; it's a wonder how tragic and sad life can be, possibly be, and would be at many different points of time. It's amazing, how the feeling of ecstasy enters and exit one's life. It can arrive like stars to a welcoming party, or escape like individuals during the plague.

It's like the feeling when one is being held at knife point, threatened. Go, or die. We're forced to make hard choices. It's unsurprising to see illustrious success mounting the podium and the eclectic cheers of many below; it is harder however to see, the congregation of others whom have failed in attempt; or died, spiritually or mentally trying. The feeling of bile building up, rancidity of the system acting against your will, when you're forced into corners. Pressured to make decisions, acting against your personal will.

A 'Dummies guide to stepping out of emotional sorrow' would be good. Really. The world should have one. Full of emotional people. Tsk.

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Give me a day or two,
I'll be back, good as new.
Meanwhile, I'll mend those wounds,
Perhaps add plaster here and there,
But how I'd cope, how I'd fare;
No, this world, it doesn't care.

For now I'd just sit back,
Prop up the pillows,
Ponder about, how I'd face tomorrow.

It is definitely a laughable offense, how one could think the world was that perfect a place. Or choose to ignore so much of the realities of life, and to pay attention to only the pleasant. No, only the fool would choose to believe in the wonders life where nothing unpleasant ever existed.

也该是时间长大了.

世界, 都也不会是想象中的那么完整,那么美好. 哈哈,哈哈..

Excerpt, source unknown.

Waking. A reminder of your existence in this world.

Dragged back by external stimuli, forcefully. Away from the minimal escape fitful sleep has to occur.

It's the first. Perhaps not the last, either. Hah. What a wonderful world.

The first recollection of the day: how the sunlight filtered through the windows.Were they wonderful, bathing everything an ethereal quality befitting of God himself. Wonderful, till everything crashed in; whatever transpired through the night.

The rest followed; the alcohol reek, the splitting headache, the feeling of wet clothes that clung to the body, all that of a hangover. And for the first time, he could not place a finger to; identify the exact replica of himself in the mirror. Nor could he acknowledge the individual staring back, the hollow features, the painful expression, swollen rings beneath the eyes, disheveled hair, the individual, once who had been standing firm and confident. For the one that offered solace and support, finally, required some for himself.

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Urban Dictionary (I)

Definition for Dummies, by the UrbanDictionary (It's a darn cool website with almost ALL definitions you can want to find, pasted below are the some interesting ones!)

Apple:
The alternative to the orange.

Noted.
A reply posted when someone puts a status on facebook, myspace, etc. Sarcastically shows that you care, and are going to write the status down in a notebook, when you really dont care at all about the status. i.e.

Facebook Status-
John Smith is goin to the movies
Comment-
Noted. 

Obama:
No real definition for this word is possible at this time. Check back in 4 years by then a consensus by have formed. Each person projects his personal beliefs and values onto this word, and a standard meaning isn't possible at this time.

Politics:
The fastest way to piss off anybody and make enemies.

Stealth Abs:
When your ripped six pack is covered by a thick layer of fat. i.e

This isn't a beer belly, it's my stealth abs. I just needed to avoid attracting too many ladies with my well defined stomach.    

Sex:      
What kind of moron are you that you look up sex in the urban dictionary?
Looking up sex??? Seriously, get off now before I turn off the internet.

That's crazy:
It's the perfect response when you haven't been listening at all.
It works whether the other person has been saying something funny, or sad, or infuriating, or boring.... i.e.

Them: 'my girlfriend dumped me last night'
You (thirsty, not paying attention): 'oh man, that's crazy'

Them: 'I won 500 bucks at craps last weekend'
You (hungry, daydreaming about a tasty sandwich, not listening): 'wow, that's crazy'




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Last but not least, ever so true. Oh I'm getting to like this website. (:

Jonathan:

Loyal, Generous, Handsome individual (s), who is/are without a doubt the very best person to love. Jonathan(s) is/are Intelligent, Subtle, Strong, Rock-like Men. They are the best Friends and very best Lovers. i.e.

No matter what happens to me, good or bad, I can be happy because I have a Jonathan.

OH yes, OH Jonathan, OH YES! (again and again and again and etc., etc., etc.)

Hahahahahahahaaaaa. Noted.

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IVP(-9)

Stand tall, stand proud.

(Happy x Sad) + (Good x Bad) :  Life. 
'Cest la vie. Where we've all the jubilant moments, as well as the emotional times miserable instances . (:


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'Turn your face to the sun, and the shadows fall behind you.'

If we'd think back on all that has happened, we'd probably could, come up with a huge list. We've all the major ones first. Then the little things that made us smile, and the ones that made us sad. But we should also always remind ourselves, that for the ten good things, there are too, the same number for the bad ones. But that also works in reverse. It takes no more time to see the good side of life than to see the bad. So take your time to make yourself happy rather than be bitter about all that's happened. It may be a little hard to see any good, but it's always there if you look. Always there. Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start now and make a brand new ending. That's what I believe in; and how much I believe you can accomplish. Have faith, 'cause many people too, have faith, in you, and your abilities. (:

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隐形的翅膀－　张韶涵

每一次 都在徘徊孤单中坚强
每一次 就算很受伤也不闪泪光
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 飞过绝望
不去想 他们拥有美丽的太阳
我看见 每天的夕阳也会有变化
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 给我希望

我终于 看到所有梦想都开花
追逐的年轻歌声多嘹亮
我终于 要想用心灵望不害怕
那里会有风车飞过远方
不去想 他们拥有美丽的太阳
我看见 每天的夕阳也会有变化
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 给我希望

我终于 看到所有梦想都开花
追逐的年轻歌声多嘹亮
我终于 要想用心灵望不害怕
那里会有风车飞过远方
隐形的翅膀 让我分钟比天长
留一个愿望让自己想象

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Live, not regret.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Robert Frost

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We've chosen our paths, we've set our destinations.

We've hardened our hearts, made tough decisions.

Don't look back, traveller, don't. It ain't helpin' anyway.

Who we are today, we've paved it thus far, all the way.

Not regrets, not grouches, none of them.

Blink away those tears, and live through the pain;

Then perhaps we'll live to see the end of the day.

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IVP(-11)

Smileys.

Smile. It's easier than explaining why you're sad. (:

Life?!

Life?!

On the first day God created the dog. God said, "Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. I will give you a life span of twenty years." The dog said, "That's too long to be barking. Give me ten years and I'll give you back the other ten."
So God agreed.

On the second day God created the monkey. God said, "Entertain people, do monkey tricks and make them laugh. I'll give you a twenty-year life span." The monkey said, "Monkey tricks for twenty years? I don't think so. Dog gave you back ten, so that's what I'll do too, okay?"
And God agreed.

On the third day God created the cow. "You must go to the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves, and give milk to support the farmer. I will give you a life span of sixty years."
The cow said, "That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years. Let me have twenty and I'll give back the other forty."
And God agreed again.

On the fourth day God created man. God said, "Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. I'll give you twenty years."
Man said, "What? Only twenty years? Tell you what, I'll take my twenty, and the forty the cow gave back, and the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back, that makes eighty, okay?"

Okay," said God, "You've got a deal."

So that is why the first twenty years we eat, sleep, play, and enjoy ourselves; the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family; the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren; and the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.

Life has now been explained to you.

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Put a smile back on that face, come on! Life's always pleasant; you'd just require a little cool-off time? Chill (:

笑!

“真实” 和 “谎言”
若干年前，看到这么一小段文字：

“真实” 和 “谎言” 一起到河边洗澡。

先上岸的 “谎言” 偷偷穿上 “真实” 的衣服不肯归还。

固执的 “真实” 死也不肯穿上 “谎言” 的衣服， 只好一丝不挂光溜

溜地走回家。

Fourteenth Februrary.

 

i like this picture alot! (:

 kudos kudos kudos to the photographer.

a helium balloon; let out of grasp, it drifts; but you'd never know, it might just return to you when it lands.

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Fourteenth February, Valentines.

 The Young's Valentines

Valentine, you’re in my dreams,
Both daytime and at night;
I dream of how you’d feel to touch,
How I’d fill you with delight.So far my dreams have not come true;
You scarcely know I’m there.
But if I were a super hero,
Then I could make you care.As Spiderman I’d weave a web,
Lure you and catch you in it,
So you couldn’t just smile and walk away,
After talking less than a minute.As Plastic Man my parts could stretch,
I’d form them as you desire.
We could play till we got it right;
Now that should light your fire.As Batman I’d show you sweet mysteries
In my secret underground lair.
I’d kiss and caress you to ecstasy;
Say yes; just take my dare. I might be the superhero you’ve dreamed;
Don’t automatically deny me.
Just put yourself in my loving hands;
You won’t be sorry; try me.You’re my personal Wonder Woman;
Be my heroine, Valentine.
Let me show you why you should choose me,
And why you’ll love being mine.

Timeless ValentineAs time goes by from year to year,
One thing is surely true, my dear;
Though decades come and decades go,
Just seeing you sets me aglow.Time shifts my body; I start to sag,
When I pass a mirror, it can make me gag.
My joints all ache; I can hardly move;
Still a smile from you, and I’m in the groove.Getting older can be a pain,
But with you along, I can’t complain.
Despite the things that we go through,
I know I’ll never stop loving you.Your loving heart turns life to play,
As we laugh at time from day to day.
So I write this poem, and I’ll hang my sign,
Saying, "Always Be My Valentine."
#2 was really sweet. Haha, I'd like to imagine the person hearing it on the receiving end (: 

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From every wound there is a scar, and every scar tells a story. A story that says, I survived.

Strength.

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile. 

Finding strength to rise from a drastic fall, motivation to continue, power to fuel ourselves. And the source? Sometimes, it's rather sad, but true, that hard work doesn't equate to results, doesn't it? Regardless of the social stigmatism. The higher you climb, the harder you fall. At the peak, the only direction we have, if the status quo isn't maintained, is down. But it doesn't mean that all ends there, does it? What happened to facing challenges like the headstrong individuals we are? Or living to fight another day? No, it isn't the end. It isn't. Rather, obstacles that we've to leap over to traverse the rocky path ahead.

It is always compared between, the cowardly actions of the individual and the ostrich. But like the ostrich which chooses to delude itself by burying it's head as an 'escape' from it's natural predator, isn't it better to be in the dark some of the times? Rather than the "I choose not to see you" mentality, why not the "I know I am able to know what you're doing but I choose to ignore it." train of thought? Yeah, why not. Why not take things into stride, and emerge smiling? It's hard, but it's worth a try.


We've got to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what we've got, and remember what we had. Always forgive, but never forget. Learn from mistakes, but never regret.  

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Today is Tomorrow's Memory.

Sometimes we see things in color,
But at times they appear in black & white, 
Sometimes we succumb to the darkness, 
But we return to bathe in the light, 
Sometimes we do things considered wrong,
Even though we know what's right, 
Sometimes we crumble in weakness,
But the time comes to unleash our might,
Sometimes we cower in fear,
But deep inside we're brave enough to fight,
Most of the time we're very perceptive,
Other times we lose sight,
Sometimes our judgments are cloudy,
But mostly they're clear and bright,
Sometimes we're cruel for no reason,
But most of the time,we know how to be polite,
Sometimes we think we're not good enough,
But our presence alone would suffice,
Sometimes we lose ourselves in guilt,
Other times we enjoy the rewards with great delight,
Things might happen tomorrow,
Or they might happen tonight,
But if you hold your head up high and have faith,
I guarantee you,everything is going to be alright. 


Be strong. (:

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'10POP

Opportunity.

Opportunity.

THEY do me wrong who say I come no more
When once I knock and fail to find you in;
For every day I stand outside your door
And bid you wake, and rise to fight and win.

Wail not for precious chances passed away!
Weep not for golden ages on the wane!
Each night I burn the records of the day--
At sunrise every soul is born again!

Dost thou behold thy lost youth all aghast?
Dost reel from righteous Retribution's blow?
Then turn from blotted archives of the past
And find the future's pages white as snow.

Art thou a mourner? Rouse thee from thy spell;
Art thou a sinner? Sins may be forgiven;
Each morning gives thee wings to flee from hell,
Each night a star to guide thy feet to heaven.

Laugh like a boy at splendors that have sped,
To vanished joys be blind and deaf and dumb;
My judgments seal the dead past with its dead,
But never bind a moment yet to come.

Though deep in mire, wring not your hands and weep;
I lend my arm to all who say "I can!"
No shame-faced outcast ever sank so deep
But yet might rise and be again a man!

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一定要坚持下去.　加油（：

Laughs for the obscene and vulgar.

Happened to chance by what seemed to be an outright ridiculously funny piece of work, though it has its vulgar connotations. It is true, that as we progress today, our young are definitely exposed overly to external influences; they're getting polluteeeddd?!


LITTLE TONY FROM BROOKLYN ON MATH

A teacher asks her class, "If there are 5 birds sitting on a fence and you shoot one of them, how many will be left ?" She calls on little TONY.

He replies, "None, they will all fly away with the first gunshot."

The teacher replies, "The correct answer is 4, but I like your thinking."

Then little TONY says, "I have a question for YOU."

"There are 3 women sitting on a bench having ice cream: One is delicately licking the sides of the triple scoop of ice cream. The second is gobbling down the top and sucking the cone. The third is biting off the top of the ice cream. Which one is married ?"

The teacher, blushing a great deal, replied, "Well, I suppose the one that's gobbled down the top and sucked the cone."

To which Little TONY replied, "The correct answer is 'the one with the wedding ring on'," but I like your thinking."


LITTLE TONY ON MATH

Little TONY returns from school and says he got an F in arithmetic.

"Why?" asks the father.

"The teacher asked, 'How much is 2x3,' " I said "6", replies TONY.

"But that's right !" says his dad.

"Yeah, but then she asked me "How much is 3x2 ?"

"What's the f ** king difference ?" asks the father.

"That's what I said !"


LITTLE TONY ON ENGLISH

Little TONY goes to school, and the teacher says, "Today we are going to learn multi-syllable words, class. Does anybody have an example of a multi-syllable word ?"

Little TONY says, "Mas-tur-bate."

Miss Rogers smiles and says, "Wow, little TONY, that's a mouthful."

Little TONY says, "No, Miss Rogers, you're thinking of a blowjob."


LITTLE TONY ON GRAMMAR

Little TONY was sitting in class one day. All of a sudden, he needed to go to the bathroom. He yelled out, "Miss Jones, I need to take a piss !!"

The teacher replied, 'Now, TONY, that is NOT the proper word to use in this situation. The correct word you want to use is 'urinate.'

Please use the word 'ur-i-nate' in a sentence correctly, and I will allow you to go."

Little TONY, thinks for a bit, and then says, "You're an eight, but if you had bigger tits, you'd be a TEN !"


LITTLE TONY ON GRAMMAR

One day, during lessons on proper grammar, the teacher asked for a show of hands from those who could use the word "beautiful" in the same sentence twice.

First, she called on little Suzie, who responded with, "My father bought my mother a beautiful dress and she looked beautiful in it."

"Very good, Suzie," replied the teacher. She then called on little Michael.

"My mommy planned a beautiful banquet and it turned out beautifully."

She said, "Excellent, Michael !"
Then the teacher reluctantly called on little TONY.

"Last night at the dinner table, my sister told my father that she was pregnant, and he said, 'Beautiful, just f ** king beautiful !'"


LITTLE TONY ON GETTING OLDER

Little TONY was sitting on a park bench munching on one candy bar after another.

After the 6th one a man on the bench across from him said, "Son, you know eating all that candy isn't good for you. It will give you acne, rot your teeth, and make you fat."

Little TONY replied, "My grandfather lived to be 107 years old."

The man asked, "Did your grandfather eat 6 candy bars at a time ?"

Little TONY answered, "No, he minded his own f ** king business."

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One Hope.

One

One song can spark a moment,
One flower can wake the dream.
One tree can start a forest,
One bird can herald spring.

One smile begins a friendship,
One handclasp lifts a soul.
One star can guide a ship at sea,
One word can frame the goal.

One vote can change a nation,
One sunbeam lights a room.
One candle wipes out darkness,
One laugh will conquer gloom.

One step must start each journey.
One word must start each prayer.
One hope will raise our spirits,
One touch can show you care.

One voice can speak with wisdom,
One heart can know what's true,
One life can make a difference.
One person to truly love you.

Ad Infinitum.

Ad infinitum is a Latin phrase meaning "to infinity."

In context, it usually means "continue forever, without limit" and thus can be used to describe a non-terminating process, a non-terminating repeating process, or a set of instructions to be repeated "forever", among other uses. It may also be used in a manner similar to the Latin phrase "et cetera" to denote written words or a concept that continues for a lengthy period beyond what is shown.

人与人之间，始终有告别的一天．
但时期一到, 我们会以什么态度来面对?

Ad Infinitum. To continue, together without limits. It's a promise people make all the time. To hold that relationship, cherish those bonds even after separation, how many people actually see to that?

Ad Infinitum, this years theme for the Hwa Chong j1 orientation. Apt, but it really brings one to contemplate. Contemplate, what could the future possibly bring. A year down the road? Ten years down the road?

A non-terminating repeating process.

Yeah, it is. A never ending tunnel stretching on to forever. Life is somewhat like a blank page. You fill it up. The people around you are the ink, you pen down your own story, you drive your own direction. It is a non terminable operation. Once the current companions around you are changed, once you get into contact with newer ones, you change your environment, your thinking; it's repeated process, over and over again.

A non-terminating process.

Or is it? In a different environment, bonds break down. Like how a change in pH can denature the bonds of the protein structure by altering the specific 3-D configuration of the arranged bonds in the protein, a change in environment likewise would too have adverse effects (I'm good to think of this, biologgyyyy. Hahha). People get out of touch, stray apart, and such. Put it in a graph, it's more of a product-life cycle. Interesting what you find on the Internet today. (:

Get to know, get to know better, break apart. Life. Ironic, yeah?


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Yesterday marked the end of the week. Hell of a week, it was.

I'd been through high school, I'd been a senior.
I've had my own junior squad in a uniform group, I've had handfuls of juniors.
Yet being a 'senior', in all forms of the word; is something that I've only recently came to terms with.

No, it's not about the position you're holding;, not as a leader, when you're tasked with the numerous responsibilities that comes with it.
No, it's not about the curriculum. School, education, work schematics. It all boils down to results, I surmised.
It's more about the people, I feel.



Time. And we're sorely lacking it.

For after all what is man in nature? A nothing in relation to infinity, all in relation to nothing, a central point between nothing and all and infinitely far from understanding either. The ends of things and their beginnings are impregnably concealed from him in an impenetrable secret. He is equally incapable of seeing the nothingness out of which he was drawn and the infinite in which he is engulfed.

2011. Then, does a section in the amusement park close down? Or does the carousel continue running?
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Today I smiled, and all at once things didn't look so bad.

Today I shared with someone else, a bit of hope I had.

Today I sang a little song, and felt my heart grow light,

And walked a happy little mile, with not a cloud in sight.


Today I worked with what I had and longed for nothing more,

And what had seemed like only weeds, were flowers at my door.

Today I loved a little more and complained a little less,

And in the giving of myself, I forgot my weariness.

I did, too, yesterday. Orientation is always an experience. (:


J1s, bask in the sun, dance in the rain. Cheer like you haven't before, show off to the world as much as you can, enjoy J1 life, too, it's a whole new different playing ground in J2. And High School guys, don't forget those high school times, you'd probably some best moments there, too.

Once upon a time.

Once upon a time, many things could happen.

Once upon a time, the sun shone high, the birds chirped loud, the grass was green. Everything could happen.
Great pivotal shifts they would serve to provide, had we chosen wisely.
But it was once upon a time, just once upon a time. (:

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Ever surprised yourself when you were dumbfounded?
Gawked at something you would think the last to occur?

Time.

Time.

At instances, too much, or the lack of it. What we see as the day to day, continuous flow. Never ending, never pausing to rest, never, waiting for anyone.




 If it could be turned around.

There are things that sometimes we do wish that do not transpire, for the implications and consequences following are unpleasant or even unbearable. Things that leave you gasping for breath in the midst of the night, things that you'd regret not having done, only after it's passing you find it's value, or perhaps, that few incidents you'd never wish more not to have happened that grieved you for those long nights. There are so many things, so many, that I would like to accomplish. If time could be turned around; if we could traverse it, I'd imagine most, if not all of us would have our own agendas. Myself included.


If only time could be stopped.


Time is a luxury. I've heard many verbalize it, but never once, never, comprehended what it would serve to represent. Yes, I've gradually come to realize, that time, is and would always be, a luxury. Something slipping out of your reach, beyond your grasp. I see year, years sliding pass, many years to come. I see people changing, faces changing, a changing circle of companions, changing attitudes. Or have we ever wondered, what our time here was meant for? Serving a greater purpose? A cog in the giant schematics of works perhaps? Or a minute drop amongst the giant sea of resources? Time, it's fleetingly short, in days we are able to count, are major milestones in our life. Determining factors; choices that we have to make, challenges we have to overcome. And they're just around the bend. If only time could be stopped.


I really have no inkling of when this will end. The road, it's still long, and the first signs of fatigue, it's showing.

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I was looking at old pictures. There, the faces that I passed constantly years before were staring back at me. Yeah, staring back. The photos, remnants of what once was, the only evidence a representation of all that changed. And as these photos stood still before me, I realized, in the moment, that I was unable to account for some companions used-to-be.

I saw old friends, some no longer part of my life, others barely in contact.
I saw old childhood "enemies", where fights now seem immature and useless.

The time that once was.

Because in the end, all that we will have and be left with, are memories stuck in a million pictures, and it will be up to us if we regret them or not.

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On a more positive note,
Said Danny, quoted from Invictus:

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.


I am the captain of my soul; steer it, navigate it away from the storms I will. Be strong I will.